Im losing it. A dozen messages of hate and apologies. My mind just goes back to what it seems to be an unending slideshow of memories that I should let go. But do I really have to? I dont function right. My head just floats to thoughts that I couldn’t even face right now. I am weak. Weaker than I thought.
I tried, to make this day, as peaceful as you wanted it to be. A time for yourself, yet I still linger on the thoughts of us and why it will never be the same.
and so I will walk forward and just let my feet take me wherever I want to. I just dont want to end up at your doorstep looking like a fucking idiot. Again.
They say its easy, I say its not.
6 years. IT HAS NEVER BEEN A JOKE.